We're Expecting Baby #3!
Surprise! We’re expecting another Baby Dodson February 2020! It was a huge surprise when we found out in late June this year. It’s much of the reason why I’ve been quiet on social media and my blog.
My daughter had been saying she wanted a little sister for the longest time and having another baby was not in my plans any time soon. Jaxon had just turned one in April. What I thought to be the stomach flu turned out to be a positive pregnancy test. If you didn’t know, my daughter actually knew I was pregnant with my second before I knew as well. You can read that story here.
So let’s have an honest moment for a minute. It took me months before I came to terms accepting this pregnancy. I was in denial, even during the sonogram when they confirmed there indeed was a baby in there and how far along I was. It’s so hard to finally feel like yourself again, return back to work, stop breastfeeding and create future plans that honestly don’t include a third baby and now you have to rethink everything!
I honestly went into a mini depression phase because I just did not want to be pregnant and I expressed that over and over, which honestly made me feel like a terrible person because there are so many women praying to get pregnant. I was that woman a few years ago. But I’m having an honest moment, and it’s completely normal to feel like this and I shouldn’t feel guilty and neither should any other woman.
Pregnancy takes a toll on you physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I have finally come to terms with my pregnancy and am looking forward to Baby Dodson #3 next year. I’m finally embracing it all and my mental state about it is a lot better. Also, I thank God, I am out of that tragic first trimester.
I’ll try to share more updates on this pregnancy journey. As I am writing this, I am in my second trimester and am 21 weeks and 4 days. We are more than halfway there and will be announcing the gender soon, so stay tuned.
Before I end this, I do want to give some words of encouragement for those mamas who are feeling guilty for not enjoying their pregnancy: It’s okay. You have every right to be upset. This is your body and this is your future, especially if this was an unplanned pregnancy or even a difficult pregnancy. We are all human. But know with those feelings, try to look for the good. Our bodies are amazing and are growing a beautiful human inside, that we get to love and nurture. Our plans don’t always go as expected but luckily nothing is set in stone and we can rewrite those plans with a little one in mind and they may even come out better than you may have dreamed of before. Also, remember that just because you have a child and become a mother doesn’t mean you have to stop being you. Still pursue your dreams, still go back to school, still travel, and still continue to be you. Motherhood only enhances you, it shouldn’t strip you.
Love & light,
Jalesa